Sunday, April 24, 2016

la poemes

blue and orange are colors you see
white and black are opposites of me

the grey is what i am today
and yesterday, before and then,
her and there and old big ben,

i see the clock has striked at noon
but i've got a secret, well not a secret you baboon
time's not moving, space is you know
got a question, free throw?

keep on running i'll catch up
mowgli, tarzan, a little chipped teacup
don't belong here a little "sup"
be our guest they say, whatever down isn't shut up
i've got a dog that'll make you be like oh "PUP"?

keep on writing lines, the more the better
the latter encourages me, no matter what the weather
i'll stay up all night if i have to adding lines to matter
i can't take it make it break it whatever
i don't understand a thing i really don't i'm just a brother
a sister an aunt a child and a visitor

this world is not my own
it's a borrowed space place sewn
stitched together almost seemlessly seemingly strewn
white as bone
cold as an empty abandoned home
where lovers used to live but they fought and one left and the other moved and none is shown
what to do where to go who to be what do i know?

Saturday, April 16, 2016

zachary, my dream

we were married, you had just designed, produced, and directed and written a stage production and it was also filmed.
i was there at the premiere

it was quite nc17

there were a lot of naked women

it was in new york

i was so proud of you and we went to a party together

we had one glass of champagne each

it was nice until this blonde girl went to the bar and you were checking her out

i gave you the nod

and you put your finger up her dress and then you looked in to her eyes and you licked it and then you walked back over to me and said, "sorry." with a puppy dog smile.

we were then in this trippy apartment

there was a whole wall with  a picture of marylin manson and bunk beds

and it was on a hill in a forest

and it was a really new age place everything dark wood and deep reds.

but you said it was for your son.

i felt upset.

he wasn't my son.

but you had taken to interior decorating and you were doing quite well. a lot of people wanted to buy your houses

Monday, April 11, 2016

do you plan

on attacking me in the middle of the wilderness?

i promise you that's not neccessary.

my life will end on your behalf no matter what you do, kiss me or kill me.

i'm sorry. not sorry.

i like safari

because i like trust,

and with trust,

comes respect. and with respect,

comes more and more love.

and doting compliments.

it's not that i don't want to be open about my life,

it's just that i think i should choose who and when and where and stuff to be open about my life.

and google doesn't allow that.

that's what my blog is for!

v for vendetta

watching it for the first time.

i've seen the ending so many times, but i've never seen it in order.

it's a beautiful film.

i'm going to watch it again!

i never realized how true it really is.

you can love something you don't understand.

or someone.

someone you don't know.

it doesn't matter.

it doesn't matter how close you are.

one small turn of events and you fall in love for eternity,

the rest of it doesn't matter.

nothing else.

you don't need evidence, that's only the fear talking.

there's no need to be afraid.

and i'm not.

i will die for love.


Monday, April 4, 2016

amanda bynes

let us not forget

you may be suffering

and that may be for your art.

but there are other people suffering too.

now i don't want to put pressure on you.

but i would like you to recover whether you ever get a job again or not.

YOU HELPED ME SURVIVE MIDDLE SCHOOL

you helped people become famous

you ARE AN IMPORTANT irreversible fixture in people's minds

and like britney spears A BEAUTIFUL RECOVEREE

you can also recover.

i believe that you
maculay 
shia 
lindsay
and anyone else that might need help

may ask for it

words from jk rowling

important words to remember.

it's your choice

you are in control of your recovery

SURE the media makes fun of you

people are making fun of me

i might be crazy

and i might have diabetes

and people might feel better about themselves because of your problems.

BUT NOT ANYMORE

you will pick yourself up

and you will be a strong woman

because i saw "she's the man"

and it changed my life

I'M SERIOUS

and i saw mean girls

and i saw the parent trap

and i saw just my luck

SERIOUSLY?
 chris pine?
that was a good movie.

the olson twins

elizabeth olson

your future starts now

you can be anything you want to be